November

it’s summer tomorrow. if I was in Lewes it would be winter tomorrow. I don’t know why the difference makes me sad, but it does. the months slip by so quickly now. it’s nearly a year since we left. sometimes I wish I could stop thinking of it all together: the missing is too much and I often think I’d be better off forgetting it all so as to allow my getting on with life. but I can’t forget, and I know I shouldn’t. I’m forever changed by the time and the people I shared it with. there’s so much to be grateful for, and though I still can’t make sense of the loss, I miss as I hope it might get easier with time. it’s all so far away now, further with every day. the distance is too much. I wish things were different. << x