on rain

rain on tiles

on leaves

on windows

rain in clouds

in dreams

til morning

rain on plans

rain drowns the land

rain runs away on holiday

comes back again to wake me up

from who I think I was / I am

the sociology and philosophy of tomorrow

at the table on the second landing fossicking coherent thought from someone else's jargon. I try to focus without closing my ears. the sounds of the passage between assorted lectures coffees expectations. fingers tapping over footsteps keys and marble. laughter through the glass outside.

familiar strangers across the table exchange news just loud enough for prying ears. the one on the right has just returned from my island, wanted to escape the city for a change of pace maybe a breath of fresh air. ten days on a silent retreat in the woods. bland food no words only guided meditation to keep you from your thoughts. my brother tried this once. the other asks questions between sips from her clear plastic cup. she is catching up on her studies: a unit on the sociology and philosophy of AI. I wonder what this means think of the dystopia how much we can really say or know about tomorrow.

Prometheus bared

I feel my shape changing

writing something

angel listens to the news

volcano

crying etc.

angel eyes

after the therapy

mum on her phone

Prometheus bared

scream

sight or touch or

not ready to see myself

plastic bench with trees

flowers

at the bottom of the cliff

crochets in the courtyard

drowning

post dinner in the purple room

treading water

I am still alive

city of stars

second floor arts west hiding from the sun / crawling into my computer try to get some thinking done. someone plays the piano by the lift on the first landing. a tune twinged with saudade / spun from a film about choosing to lose art or love. we hummed the melody / an air we knew without knowing and danced in the kitchen at the end of our little life, twirling each other from different ends of the earth / swimming seamlessly in song. I think of you and every other ghost I've loved. questions laugh at any misplaced sense of certainty. I close my ears and watch the people living on my phone.

dental

the dentist covers the gap between their charge the chronicles between my last clean. a new consumer special. x-ray on a flimsy neon plastic frame to see my teeth a little clearer. photorecords with another camera in my mouth; they show me pictures on the television. calculus removed with water and a sharper metal rod.

I think about how much has past since last another person cleaned my teeth. they tell me to keep doing what I'm doing maybe floss at night instead of morning that my teeth haven't changed. if only we were so predictable. they ask me to come back in six months. I spit the mouthwash back into a plastic cup.

our momentary babel

they let me use a screwdriver to take apart the set. I feel like a boy like someone they want to rely on. I work on bolts in different places: fake office tables monitors and platforms. our little world forged for fun for a moment now vacated for good. we use pliers to pull out the staples in the back of the throne. our momentary babel is torn with our own hands to scraps they'll use for something else. I think about the boards that made the desk at which I played under synthetic light wonder what was torn to build it how they'll next be used to shape another scene or set a funeral pyre. returning to clay at the end of the day we leave our tools behind. how many lifetimes are held by a tree? why must this matter less than me?

we mop and cleanse the stage of demons on our way out of the theatre. my bucket fills the colour of our mess. I watch it cyclone make a whirlpool in the sink.

another lost thing

on the way home with guests without my bike waiting for the tram. we've had Chinese for dinner and mulled wine for the cold. a lady sways across the tracks casting spells in some other language. she drags along a plastic ziplock bag the size of a flatscreen cables and bathroom essentials inside. webs of tattoo run along her bones from ankles to fingertips. she stands in the lights of another closing bar calling out to oncoming traffic from the middle of the road I ride to school. I think she's lost but doubt she'd be any other way anywhere else.

by time our tram arrives she's crossed the road to board before us. we take the door at the other end of the carriage. from where we sit I hear her mumbling. the foreign tongue is nearly familiar, close enough to intelligible to retain concern to keep ears open. she is restless in her seat and stands crossing the tram to meet the window. she reaches stares provokes and wipes the tears of her reflection tracing veins in the glass masking faces with fog. she reminds me of ghosts from my dreams and prophets I met on ward. perhaps she's something in between. I know I am for now.