too many mirrors

at the bar there are too many mirrors downstairs. every wall is covered in reflection. every shard is dressed in pretty frames that should be housing paintings. the masses stop in passing between bathrooms and another drink as our backstage becomes the epicentre of shared vanities / our apathy / performance. even at our best we can't compare to masterpiece or dream. even at our best can we ever look good enough?

nothing = everything

baby blue and mustard clouds pass under letters stencilled blood red coal and poison green:
nothing
is
real
so
nothing
is
wrong (acrylic on canvas on doorstep of op shop). this truth could be yours for no more than five dollars. I take a photo for later / to remember a glass half full.

of course to flip the coin we find another side. everything is real so everything is wrong. a little like the last line of the chorus from the song. would you live in a hologram with me?

Isaiah and Tom talk about dreams

once I woke up thinking 'I wonder how AI and AI slop has influenced dreams'
yeah
anyway
wait because your dream felt like that?
it felt like kind of AI yeah I don’t know
did the monster look AI?
I mean hard to tell cause it was dark and the monster was like half the time a wolf and occasionally it was a man then it was like a big ant thing
a big ant?
weird
I’ve had that before in dreams
a big ant?
being chased by a big ant
yeah it wasn’t fun
it sucks
did you find the treasure?
no
did you forget about the treasure?
yeah

the ones you wore when we were

the rooftop is open to the moon. radiators hang like palm trees over every other table so we sit outside in the shadow of the skyline. the few buildings tall enough to scrape the sky look silly amidst more modest friends. from this distance it's hard to tell which ones are used for what. but it doesn't really matter. what really can from such a distance?

across the table a stranger twirls his hair like I would as a child. sangria and ambiguity for two. he talks about returning from another world to feel alien in his own home. I try to understand and think I can a little, thinking of chapters closed in transit between one life and another. we laugh about the city and being the way we are / timid / proud / precious in the face of our decay. he seems nice enough and we seem to enjoy our time under the radiators. but he has your nose and hair and his glasses look too much like the ones you wore when we were for a moment. if I look too close his eyes might also belong to you. he wants to find something to eat. I want to hear you say my name again.

after dinner we decide to surrender to the cold. I leave him waiting for the tram. do you remember how it felt to lose and win each other back between our planes and trains? you kissed me at the station for both of our goodbyes. I ride down streets you'll never see and wonder when you last thought of me.

sushi and seagulls

world war three is seagulls shrieking / tearing sushi airborne through the lunch crowds in fed square. 'some animals are much more palatable than others'. cats or dogs or condensation? we come for one reason and stay for another. I laugh a little much until I leave forgetting why. you linger like a curse on every other second question.

Helicon's lament

and I could not give you the moon

though I see her every night

looking back at me through glass

crying stars into the dark

if words would work I’d ask her why

but words mean less to giants

I wonder what she thinks

looking down on us to death

condemned to witness every fault and flame

silent and lonely

undersung after the sun

almost beyond utility

a truth-knowing god without hands

left to spectate our decline into the clay from which we came

a little closer every day

a matter of patience

she waits with little else to do

sick of pulling tides and glowing

watch us dance

watch us spinning out of reason

through the veils of vice and virtue

making tombs of our tomorrows

at night

judgement day on the horizon

she would laugh if she could

if the moon had a mouth.

death with flowers

death walks beside a girl with flowers. the petals fall for no one in particular. but you’re still here. how did you become my burning hill? I swear the last one never died. the coals still glow sometimes.