sometimes when I come home it feels a little like excusing myself from life - even if just for a short while. I’m leaning into this feeling as I show this place I’ve known forever to a friend from far away.
two days and Pia seems to have relaxed into things. she loves the cat and is happy to have a whole room to herself after months of camping along the east coast of the country. I’m treasuring her company and openness to seeing my world.
we visited Carol today. seeing her home through new eyes leaves me feeling nostalgic. I’ve been happy here, and very lucky to spend time growing up with my brothers and cousins in such a magical place. Carol updated us on her adventures in and out of hospital, still full of energy. I don’t quite understand it.
Eliza took us out for burritos. we laughed a lot this afternoon - showing Pia the beach and making smoothies. Eliza heads to Melbourne early next year to start her new life studying science. I’m so proud of her, and count myself lucky to still know her generosity and friendship.
I took Pia to the edge of the world - sunset atop Kunanyi. we were above the clouds as the colours deepened.
we followed a loose path from one rock to another as the sun was swallowed by the horizon. the sight was really something else. I stopped thinking for a moment, and I was still.
ties to head and heart pull no matter how far I find myself from the lives I leave on pause. I try my best to be present here and forget, for now, what I cannot conquer. trying to be here now, while I can. <<
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