the gap

I can't commit to more than a few words. thoughts are empty at the moment. listening and watching a lot easier than being. I'd like to write and understand the gap between in which I sit. I know it doesn't last and I'll find a voice again. maybe learn to draw and want to be. I've managed before. everything is only for now. the sale ended and I left the store with something else. the bombs that stop will start again. I can't sleep until I can. the lamp is on until it isn't. I go to bed to hide in my phone from who I could have been. look at everyone else. listen to the fan. think about the pixels. forget and pray for rain.