Alex

today was also strange. two years since Alex passed away. I spent a lot of time thinking of her throughout the day - her and I were meant to be getting coffee after a long time of not hanging out, two years ago tomorrow.

a long time. it feels like quite a disconnect - since Louise things have often happened that seem to have less of an immediate impact: shock takes time, as does leaning into and recognising my feelings. I spent some time with Lily - Jan’s housemate’s cat - today, and Alex loved cats. I would’ve liked to introduce them to each other. <<