home

I made it home. it was all a little sad leaving, which I wasn’t expecting due to knowing I’ll be back in a month or so. I’ve been lucky to make such precious friends there - and I guess that as with my those I met in Lewes, I will only miss my new friends more in their absence.

yesterday marked six years since Louise’s death. we visited her spot at the cemetery after I landed, and I had a moment with her for the first time in months. in the calm and peace I still find with her I found myself remembering just how pivotal her sudden removal from my life was, and the long lasting impact her disappearing has had on the way I think and feel. I was very young - we all were. sometimes I forget that it’s more than a story, that it actually happened to us. it’s a little overwhelming.

I’ll settle back in here shortly I’m sure, though I’ve known since returning from Lewes that home will always feel different when one loves and longs for people and places across the oceans. my room is as I’ve left it, and from here I’ll strive to find peace in the midst of another year closing. I’m getting older every day. at least we’ve still got the cat. <<