another day

I’m finding this period quite difficult. there’s a lot of doubt and a lack of faith that it’s going to work out. I’m lucky to have parents to lean on, though I wish I were stronger.

the world doesn’t stop when you’ve fallen down the stairs. I feel embarrassed by my lack of willpower to fix things and find the track again. before I would have believed in time helping, but I know this one is all on me.

I need to use my time with more intention and commit to believing I can make things work. there has been enough upset. I need to sort this out.

I miss life before this. like everything I miss, it feels impossibly out of reach. I don’t know what else to say. another day. <<