sun

there’s been lots of sun this week. I’d like to hide from what I should be doing forever.

the thought of committing to seeing another lap through daunts me. the fact that it’s my last lap in this model (playing student) frightens me just as much these days. the time has flown so quickly and I don’t know what to do.

I’m trying to make something out of each day. conscious of my inevitable inability to do so when I lose my time to study and things I’m meant to be doing. I wonder where I’ll be in six months time.

I’m lost but doing little about it at the moment. just distractions now. trying to walk gently into the oncoming chaos. hoping for balance and peace amidst the storms both outside and in. <<