moving quickly

the time is really passing now. I dreamt of Lewes the other night, though it was different, and I felt like a stranger to the place. I wake up feeling further from that time and world, but I remind myself it all still happened, and nothing can change that. it should be less difficult now I know so much of it is tied to words in my stories, though I still wish it wasn’t so far out of reach.

the times are changing now. decisions to be made. I wish I could be back, if even just for a night in 53 with my friends. I miss them and our world still every day. reminding myself I’m lucky to have something so special to miss, I look for the good things in my now. the blessings are all around. I try to embrace them without letting go.

unsure of where this is all going, and if I even want to know. one day at a time. << x