Jan

tonight Jan called me and we spoke properly for the first time since we hugged each other goodbye at Victoria Station in December 2019. throughout my time in Lewes, Jan filled the role of brother for me. we spent most of nearly every day together: studying, exploring, venting and laughing. his company is one of the things I miss every day, and to finally enjoy it again after so long was a real treat. I wish he weren’t so far away. but in hearing his laugh and seeing his smile again I realise that something as precious as the friendship I was lucky enough to find with him doesn’t simply disappear with distance and time. it’s a small gift for which I know I’ll be forever grateful. in my missing, there are still some good things to be founds. memories are still treasured, though I try to remind myself that these people and the footprints they’ve made on my story don’t simply vanish. << x