four months

four months ago today I spent my final day in Lewes with my friends. time has flown, but the memories feel as fresh as ever. I just video called some friends from room 53. this was the first time I’d seen and heard them since this time four months ago. I didn’t realise so much time had passed, all I knew is how much I missed them, and the size of the gap in my evenings left by not having them around.

life has changed in many ways. we’re all inside, adapting to the state of the world. more time to think. more time to remember and count our blessings. remembering my time away is bittersweet. I try to keep Lewes alive in my life. some days are easier than others.

seeing and hearing my friends tonight was strange. it felt impossible to think it had been so long since we had shared tea and biscuits in that crumby room on the third floor of the ‘grand hotel’. I love the people who cared for me there. they looked after me and gave me a purpose and sanctuary. a beautiful chapter of my life I often feel as though I never deserved.

I’m still there a lot of the time. when there’s beautiful clouds I’m taken back to that quirky little town. I spend time thinking of that place and the characters it brought into my orbit every day. I miss it dearly, and remain grateful and hopeful that one day, I’ll revisit the setting and people that gave meaning and colour to my adventure. << x