18.05.2020

I touched down five months ago today. this means I’ve been home for longer than I was away on my adventure. the time home has been strange. I can’t say that nothing has changed, as we’re currently drifting through unprecedented times in light of the pandemic that’s pulled the rug from under the world. but this period of five months, despite physically tying me to my island home, has been anything but stable in my mind. drifting in thoughts and dreams that take up so much of my time. processing the past and the people and wishes and simple things I’m left missing. trying to keep it all alive with an awareness of the fact that the time has passed and I’m living in its aftermath. where do we go from here? maps don’t exist for such questions. I miss and I miss and I wish my days away. << x